While I'm waiting for John Carter to load,
I come across here to say hi :)
Before that, I'd got the mood to scan some old memories so I did :)
Scrolled back through some previous post
realized how childish I was, once
and threw a few glances on those old pictures...how ugly...

I do notice something not very significant but enough to surface
_time has really changed me_
and thanks to my not_very_attractive life, I'm more consistence in surviving.
I really hope that something interesting is gonna strike me

Dreaming is off. Too many things had happened recently.
Relentless endless sleepless nights...What can I say?

Living, you can't run away from problems and it hits like sea waves,
one after another without even giving you a chance to gasp for air.
I keep telling myself to be strong,
I am growing up and that is a good thing, its not that bad after all :)
Time is going to buy me experiences :) Take time.

Here's the interesting part :D hehehe...
I found out an interesting pretty girl on Facebook a few months ago.
She is really gorgeous and we had a few nice chat :)
omg, I'm feeling like 13 again!!! shit you
yeah of course I'm not the lucky one, I haven't met her in real life yet~
That bastard has
c'mon, at least I know this VGYW do exist.

NOTE : FRIEND. NO OTHER INTENTION AT ALL

really hoping to meet such lovely creature and snap a photo of her, smiling ^^
and hoping is just hoping, usually it is not going to work.
I'm not lack of self-esteem, I'm just understanding the fact that
in life, its not always about forcing and pushing forward.

Simple says, I don't consider every pretty girl to be my future girlfriend.
Okay? There is much more to be in concern, even though my besties urge me to have one.
For me, finding one is not like finding a toy or a puppy dog. Its a long-term relationship.
I don't and won't understand what modern-minded people think nowadays,
all I know is I take this thing seriously and prettiness is not the only concern :)

Ram : "When was your last one?"
Me : "That was three years ago."
Ram : "C'mon mate, you know well how to say it. Ya' gettin' dry, find one!!"
Me : "Not in a rush at all ^^ I'm still young."
Ram : "Thats da' point, you are missing the whole fun part"

Mate, fun time is over and we're grown-up now. Its not a game for me any more.

Call me an old hag, call me a conservative, close minded guy
call me an idiot for not having fun by dating random girls
Call me a nerd, a geek, working-maniac or whatever hell it is.

Let me be responsible for my life, my family and my company.
and now I'm going to be responsible by watching John Carter
since I'd load it before writing this Progressing post.
Have a nice day.

Sincerly,
Your most-hated Jake.

Hi + Low = Hilow

Okaiy !
Soooooo oooo... howdy? ahh c'mon...
I know I know!

I'm getting suck in those southern accent ain't mate?
ahahahaha...
Since I'd started full-time schedule on my work few months ago
I seems to have become another person, ya' know what I mean ^^

________A REAL FREAK HEAVY DUTY WORKMAN_______
(you know those with bad temper and dirty hands)

yeah and with smelly shirts and socks

Tired with the office life? I changed to man work!
It was rather hard but its okay after ya' know...uhh...resetting work
I mean resetting my own body for tough work of course. Hahaha :P
Know what? Whole lot more better than staying in an air-conditioning room. Pushing myself to the limit

Dear Momma ask me why work sooooo hard...I say Mom Imma big guy now. Push now or stay frozen.
Dear Sista's remain silent but shown recognition.

Now ya'know who's da' man.

Dear Mutt and Shane, still shaking their tails and love the handsome owner.

Oh yeah! I am 2cm taller NOW!!! Can you believe that?!
and some real muscles too
I start to love ma'life, really.

Wake up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy
Dress up feel like Adam Levine
Walk'in the company feeling like a Boss
Start my daily work like Asimo the robot
Work Dirty like a car mechanic. my favourite part
Lunch without disturbance with fella' workmen, like Soldiers.
End the day tired and fall asleep after dinner

and most of that I found my way to stop thinking of her for real. Man Real
and start to let go and heal. Its hard yeah but it has to be done.
Callimari is over, head-up. I work to be a tough man mate!
She'd killed me twice, it wont happen thrice.

There is always rainbow after rain
There is only rainbow after rain

Better off dead or quitter?

After a year I left this Blog, here I am again.
After 8 months Daddy passed away, here I am again.
After 5 months of the betrayal, here I am again.

And after 2 years, here I am again.
2 years.
I thought we could change, to be better_together
but yes, something does change_ you said you'll love me forever
2 years. I'm still waiting for you to turn back, even I'd never cross your mind.
someone better appeared.

I told myself that if I keep on waiting and be patient, everything is going to be right.
I promised myself_with you
but my faith is dying and each and everyday, I'm praying, not to own you but to have the best for you. And I sill couldn't convince myself that its over.

They say a few drinks will help you to forget her but after one too many I know that I'm never
only they can see where this is going to end
but they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

and my mates are all there trying to calm me down because I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around.

I don't want her to feel guilt but she said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing.

Nothing.