Inspired Flash

Dad is in the hospital now, waiting for the check report. Mom and Kylie are there.
These few days, he suffered great pain in his stomach. After some encouragement from the family he agreed to go for a medical checking. Viruses. Maybe worse.

He left this morning to the hospital after dropped Jeng and me at school today.
I can't accompany him for the checking and seriously I'm feeling real bad about that. I am his only son and what the heck can I do? I felt terrible at the school today and I know there was nothing I could do about that.

I pay full attention in every class, just to distract my thoughts.
Maybe this is what my Dad wants me to do, not for now but always.

Because of him, my Mentor, I aim high this time.

I never did before but now yeah, I'm doing this.
For the first time, I listen and follow to his words. Surprisingly, it wasn't that hard actually. Perhaps, its a kind of blessing I received.
I won't dissappoint the family this time..

They have faith in me, and now I really understand what is this all about.
At this momment, I remind of that time...

the time when she had serious pain in her chest that night. - I wasn't there.
and then her family sent her to the hospital and - I wasn't there.
She was allergic to hazelnut coffee. Why? - I wasn't there.

All I did was finding reasons like- "its already midnight..I'll find her tomorrow"
"she'll be fine, her family was there"
"if I was there I can't do anything too"

WHO THE HELL ON EARTH WILL WANT A BOYFRIEND THAT COULDN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF HER?

Her choice of leaving was right. I was useless, that time.
Finally I understand why she felt unsafe with me.
If she is looking at this now, I sincerly apologize for being such a jerk.

No question session.
Just keep it in your heart.
There is nothing I can do to fix everything now.
If I ever have a shot again, believe me, I'll take it the best.

: Jake leave.