She wouldn't know

Yes I'm back from Japan and its really FUN !!!
For what I'm going to say is "GREAT" "AWESOME" for the whole trip.
Get to know so many people and learn a lot about life.

Learnt a lot about Life

I'm not going to post those pictures here, I'm just too lazy for that.
So I'm back, ended my crazy routine (Fie knows what I'm talking about)
continued my normal life...Lets talk about normal life, I'm stalking her again :(
duh~~~whatever...

Based on what I HAVE ALREADY EXPECTED, I'm totally out from her life.
Honestly thats a good thing and I want that but at the same time I don't want that.
I'm in a dilemma and I'm tired of repeating.
So I'm not going to repeat. All I wanna do is sit down and wait for the coming.
Bad or worse or good or better are not in my concern anymore.
What do I care? I'd lost much and it wont cost me a bomb to lose more, right?

Somehow I have to be optimistic. I have to let go, I don't want to but I have to.

I should be easier, but it doesn't so I'm not going to cry over it.

I was happy once, and now I'm in shit.
I'm not going to stay in shit and I'm not giving up. This is what I'm going to do :

I'll let her go for temporary. TEMPORARY. I'm not giving up, I'm just buying time. Then I'll try my best to screw everything up silently *ridiculous*. Ok I'm going to lay low. TEMPORARY. In this period I'll make myself as fit as I can, either physical, mentally or reputation. Till the time my patience had run out I'll make my move VIGOROUSLY.

Conclusion: keep on waiting =.="

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