Memoirs

yeah, it is the 3rd blog in today :)
just as it says, "Smile, its simple" :D
do you know where'd I got inspired from? Well I'll tell you,
I'd spent more than two weeks, putting frowns and chasing smiles away from my life,
just because I was depressed, and I thought I need to feel depressed, by showing negative behavior
*like grounding myself in the room, turn the music so loud, cried under the sheets...etc. Like any of you have seen in movies =.=" *

but I soon realize that it doesn't have to work like this.
I asked myself "why are you crying?" and then it comes out like this;
"don't ask me why you foolish! I'd been dumped! I feel like dying!I want her!"
(oww...that sounds really dramatic...)
yeah, you can imagine how did I looked like that time
one word MESSY

I went in front the mirror, big big mirror XD
and I look at my face, swollen eyes and red nose...and I can't even recognize that was actually MYSELF !

" Jake, look at yourself. This is not you. This is a weak coward timid mice. Do you think its worth to be like this just because of ONE PERSON ?"
"What will your dead grandpa feel when he sees his beloved grandson like shit?"

"its time to wake up son, don't let that mistake blind your eyes to find your future. You lose her, that means she is blocking your vision. Now she is gone, everything will be fine after today. Keep going on, Jake."

Bravo, I woke up and stood on my feet. I grab my note and start planning my life.
Included what I love to do the most in my routine, of course I exclude some of them too. I don't want anything to distract or trigger my mind to feel sorry.

NO, I am not born for that.
I just realized I apologize too much, and now its time to say no.

and I say YES to SMILE :D

Once in the morning, I think about you, I don't feel sorrow.
I appreciate it because its an evidence of your existence and just around the minutes,I am already clear...that it was just a dream

So just Smile because it's simple :)